Women already have so many issues with the "Cookie."  But, when chemo is added, your issues may multiply.  The type of chemo that I'm currently receiving drastically dries me from inside out!  I have to use moisturizers on a daily basis on the inside and outside.  Otherwise, my skin on the outside will begin to peel; and the inside will be like a dessert.

I want to share with you some of the suggestions that was shared with me by my doctor and some that I researched on my own.

You can use just about any type moisturizer on the outside; but if you are a cancer survivor or still fighting, you need to be careful about certain hormones.  I have used some of the following products:

Vitamin E suppositories
Coconut oil
Replenz
Olive oil

Have you ever experienced a burning, irritating feeling around the outside area of the vagina knowing there were known reason for it?  When I experienced that, I thought something was truly wrong so I kept making appointments with gynecologist until he asked me to stop coming to see him for no reason, LOL!  After speaking with my oncologist about this issue, she explained that this happens a lot with women who may be going through menopause and is even worse for women who are going through chemo.  You can remedy this by applying Vaseline or even olive oil in order to keep that area moist.

Until next time...Do what you have to do to keep the "Cookie" from crumbling!

Another episode...!

Hello friends and Fam!  Long time no see!  As most of you know, things have appeared to be a little rough lately.  I say appear because things aren't always as bad as they "appear" at times. 

In March, my Oncologist stopped my chemo treatments because it was killing the function of my heart; taking it down to 42%.  The Oncologist sent me to a Cardiologist to see if he could prescribe a heart med to increase my heart function.  The Cardiologist could not prescribe a heart med stating that my blood pressure was too low and it would be fatal for him to do so.

So, there I was between a rock and a hard place (as the doctor himself stated)!  I left the doctor's office, went to my car and sat there for maybe two seconds thinking I would feel despair; instead, my spirit repeated to me what God revealed to me in January 20, 2009, " If you trust me, act like it and I got your back."

After that, I said, "I'm hungry," so I picked up something to eat and went home to prepare for the work the next day. 

Now here we are a few weeks later on April 14th; my mother and nephew flew  in from Virginia around 11:30 a.m.  Later that night around 8:00 p.m. I began to feel bad chest pains which started to radiate down my right arm.  My mother called 911 and I ended up in the emergency and was admitted to the hospital for four days.  On that 4th day I was informed that the cancer had once again returned to my lungs!!!  As of this writing, I'm not sure what my future holds, but I know who holds my future!  I am going for further scans on Tuesday the 23rd and will see my Oncologist on Monday, April 30th...I will keep you posted!

The Love of My Life!

Memorial Service for Billye "Lady Love" will be this Friday October 19th at the Washington Shores Church of Christ at 6:00p.

If you would like to send cards send them to 4484 Concord Landing Drive #315, Orlando Florida 32839.

"How Far is Heaven?"

"How Far is Heaven" is one of my favorite songs.  But really, how far is Heaven?  Is it here on earth?  I do know that we (the world) does not fear death like we did years ago.  I did some research about four years ago to find out what were the three top fears in the world.  At that time it was; public speaking, being auduted by the IRS and death.

As of 2012, death barely makes the top ten!  Is it because we are becoming more spiritual?  Is it because at times it feels like hell here on earth or have our priorites just changed.  I don't think most of us fear death as much as they fear the way they may die.

I'm not obsessed with this subject; I'm just trying to deal with missing my freind!  (LORD PLEASE HELP ME)!

God Never Changes!

I've always said that I am not afraid to die. However, upon going to the doctor a few weeks ago and learning that I have to take treatments for the rest of life or cancer will overtake my body; I cried for two days!




I got in my car and said to my friend (who passed in May), "Drew, Save Me A Seat (in heaven)." However, on that third day which was a Wednesday, I woke up and laughed at myself! I said, "Self, stop being so silly! God is the same as he was yesterday. So, suck it in and keep it moving."



We all have a designated day to go to another level! What legacy will you leave on this level?

Why do we have to lose so much?

It hurts so BAD when you lose someone who you truly loves!  I lost one of my BEST friends a couple of months, May 6, 2012.  I felt like I couldn't breath for weeks!  It's still hard for me to look at picture without crying.

She and I so often spoke about "The other Side."  We always told each other, "If you go before I do, please do not grieve me to death."  It's been so very hard to do when everything, every song, every event in my life eith makes me want to reach for the phone or they remind me of her.

I had full body scan today.  I know everything is fine.  Because, though I feel fatigue, I feel good!