I can't believe that I am dealing with breast cancer!!! That was my first reaction when I was given the news. In disbelief, I closely guarded my emotions trying to do what I have always done my whole life - I tried to be strong for everyone else. The disbelief was soon followed by the fear that I could possibly lose my life to cancer. Then the realization hit me. I have nothing to lose, but everything to gain. It was in that moment that I started living each day of my life like it was my first.

I had my second chemo treatment on last Friday, May 1st. I was sick up until yesterday. I feel so much better today. I have two rounds of chemo to go through. This first round consist of four treatments, one every twenty-one days. I get three-four weeks off and then undergo weekly chemo for 12 weeks. And then, I have to take radiation daily for two weeks.

It’ been eleven days since my last treatment and I am still nauseated though it's still it's not as bad as it was week. The weekend was pretty good. Hope everybody had a wonderful Mother's Day! This was the first time in about 15 years that I haven't been home for Mother's Day. I was sad only for a second because I was just so thankful to still have my mother.

I eat pretty good everyday although there are some foods that I could eat before treatment that makes me nauseated now. Some foods make me nauseated depending on the texture or smell. The doctor asks that the weeks in between chemo you drink 80 - 100 ozs of water. It's really hard when you already feel sick but you know you have to. Believe me; I'm so thankful that things aren't as bad as they could be.

I may have a big announcement for you before the end of this month...Stay tuned!